I think most of you have heard.

Tuesday was court, where Marla signs her consents and she has decided to parent Ella. We had to return Ella to her at the attorney's office on Tuesday. We had 3 days with her and we fell in love immediately. I always wondered what kind of dad Gord would be and it was awesome! He changed many diapers, sung her to sleep and just cried looking at her. It all felt natural. We loved being a family. I can't describe returning her. I'm sure you can imagine. We miss her greatly. We are mourning our loss. Her little hat she wore home from the hospital smells like her.

We are back in Phoenix. Even though we were praying after a couple of days Marla would change her mind, the attorney told us to leave immediately to be with loved ones. It was so hard to do this so far from everyone. Lucky for us our friends from Toronto drove down to meet Ella and were there to support us through the change of events. I don't know what it would have been like without them there. We did come home to a house full of family and friends to cry with. Everyone is doing their best to make sure we are not alone and not hungry. Obviously we are alone now, as I am sure my support system would advise against me writing this blog. But, I need to get it out. We hurt so much. We are very thankful for all our family and friends and the support we have received. I just wish the healing was immediate.

We are both taking a couple of days off and will return to work sometime next week.

Everyone, please pray the she has a good life and receives much love and attention. She deserves it!! This is all about her!!

Ella Mia (Finally) : )

Angel

Born - 12/27/08 12:26 AM

19 3/4 inches

7 lbs 1.5 oz

I'll write more later, but I needed to post these... We are back at the hotel...

Today!!

Oh man we are excited today! Gord is running around like a goof! We are so excited to see her and hold her. We packed our own hospital bag, as we don't know what will happen today. I'll check in when I can. We both actually got sleep last night, so we are ready.

Nothing yet : )

Sorry, I believe some were thinking no news was good news but it was actually NO NEWS : ) We spent Christmas night with Marla and a friend of hers. She made us a home cooked meal consisting of cheese and mac (appropriately named), turkey, green beans and sweet potato casserole. Very good! We just got home and are getting to bed, hopefully, our last night childless. We have to be at the hospital at noon (they changed the time) for the induction. She was induced with Ma'kai and said that from start to finish was 8 hrs. We'll see!! We may be staying the night there, so I won't be able to blog tomorrow (just preparing you), so we will be making phone calls when we have news.

Nighty Night!! We have a long day ahead of us.

We hope everyone had a nice Christmas!

Merry Christmas Eve!!

Very uneventful here... I slept in til 10AM this morning... NICE. It is these dang hotel curtains, they keep the room sooo dark. I did wake Gord up at 9 so he could go get us some of the free breakfast downstairs! So, there was an english muffin for me when I woke up : ) He also did our laundry today. Is he awesome or what?? I guess I will keep sleeping until I have a human alarm clock.

We are heading over to Marla's to hang out for a bit. She said she feels like tomorrow is the day. hmmm We will see. If not, We know some action will happen on Friday at 6AM. Just think that is 4AM Phoenix time. So when you wake up, I may have some news!!!

Have a great eve!

Gained a niece!

At the party tonight, I often found Marla's niece (JaKaia) by my side. Finally, she says to me "I love you". I said "you love me?" and she said "yes". Mia was standing there and started laughing. She said, "you just met her" and JaKaia said "I know, but she is so nice". She then looked at me with her big brown eyes and said "I wish you were my auntie". I said "you can call me auntie if you want" so she did the rest of the night. AAWWW

Lounging around!

We are just taking it easy today until the party tonight. We are a little bored. I think it will be better when she is here, so we will have some entertainment. I'm sure every burp, coo and pooh will add excitement. It is just not as cute to see Gord do all that... : )

Funny, the little counter says that she is born........ NOT! Stubborn : )

Gord negotiated a new price on our hotel room, so that should help for a longer stay.

I thought I would post some pictures that Gord and I took the other night at the outdoor mall.

PS... I see it is 22 degrees out today! Never thought I would be excited about that, but after the last 2 days in single digit... sounds good to me.