Tuesday was court, where Marla signs her consents and she has decided to parent Ella. We had to return Ella to her at the attorney's office on Tuesday. We had 3 days with her and we fell in love immediately. I always wondered what kind of dad Gord would be and it was awesome! He changed many diapers, sung her to sleep and just cried looking at her. It all felt natural. We loved being a family. I can't describe returning her. I'm sure you can imagine. We miss her greatly. We are mourning our loss. Her little hat she wore home from the hospital smells like her.
We are back in Phoenix. Even though we were praying after a couple of days Marla would change her mind, the attorney told us to leave immediately to be with loved ones. It was so hard to do this so far from everyone. Lucky for us our friends from Toronto drove down to meet Ella and were there to support us through the change of events. I don't know what it would have been like without them there. We did come home to a house full of family and friends to cry with. Everyone is doing their best to make sure we are not alone and not hungry. Obviously we are alone now, as I am sure my support system would advise against me writing this blog. But, I need to get it out. We hurt so much. We are very thankful for all our family and friends and the support we have received. I just wish the healing was immediate.
We are both taking a couple of days off and will return to work sometime next week.
Everyone, please pray the she has a good life and receives much love and attention. She deserves it!! This is all about her!!
